My Feel

I hate this feeling ....
always let me feel & thinking a lot bad things  ..
heart be uncomfortable
a lot of things make me so difficult ...~
feel be complicated ~
because of someone , make me got this feel to think this bad things....
let me got this feel has to give up he...
im don't know why have this feel
why will thinking that...
im love he ~
since we now is long distance cannot meet everyday....just can via FB massage
he is working at korea is a band
before with he we everyday will massage talking...feel very happy...
sometime will argue with he ....sometime we fanny talk...
after he told me will start busy practice ,cannot talk everyday....
but he promise me when have a time will 1st massage talk to me...
yay...he got do what he promise me...
after he start less talk to me...
im get angry he...after he told me wont happen again...
but problem be same happen again...will after two days just looking me...
always argue with he also same the problem...
sometime will let me feel dont wanted believe what he say to me ...
when miss he wanted talk to he,he are very very busy...
im will think really very busy over there....?take a time to rest massage me also cannot ...?
always angry he & argue with he cannot accompany talking ...

after im feel habit he be that...because even im always angry he also cannot change ..
this is he job....


before that i will very mind why he not looking me ,no massage talking with me...
i will very mind...
but this time my feel has to change...
before he told me after april finish busy ,may have time can same like before we talking...after will vacation with friends...
on may im angry he again, because my feel has start dont wanted talk to he ...when he looking msg me asking what im doin here ...i dint reply he ...he has gone away ....he know i dint reply he because im angry he ...he keep msg ask me talk to he ...after one week im just talk to he...he msg me again ...after we be a normal talk ...
after 3 days ..he dint msg me again ...after 4 days more msg me told me has start vacation with friends...
when he looking me i will late reply he ,sometime will feel dont wanted talk to he again ...but i dint do dont talk to he lahhh...just will late reply talk to he...
before me will fast reply he...but this time has change ...
wont asking why now just massage me ya..
this time is no ...really no mind ,sometime will ask what you doing there only....time will leave it after he saying ...
im feel really not get angry ...

feel let me know i n he has be change,
really not same with before ,we sweet talking....
i dont know is it both of us change or just im change....??
this pass days keep have this feel let me very toilful...!!!!
i have to try dont wanted to think this ....keep give my self chance
im scare im regret let he know i wanted give up he ...
im dont know how he will think...if let he know i has change want give up he....? how he will things...????
im love he ,but my feel keep think that let me uncomfortable...

im think did i told he is true or fault ... im scare after he im regret ...?
can let me stop feeling that...i dont want this bad feeling....

im hope after mine vacation dint has this feel again...hope can with he continue before with talking...

My Day Ten 1005

My Feel ~ DOWN DOWN DOWN !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


Disappointed
         Disappointed
                 Disappointed
                                !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hayss ~ im very disappointed my friends...
make me very very angry him....
yesterday call he is date out together dinner with classmate...
Because we long time din't meet out together,just call  them wanna can join anot...
R is my friend is together me vacation phuket ...
C is me...

R told C cannot join...than fine....
C  told  R go facebook message group open C organize file...
R : don't want ...
C : why...?
R : because don;t wanted open...
R & C :is kidding talking ...
C :feel it R got somethings to say...ask R what things did you want tole me...?
R :nothing you will know soon...
C :seriously ask A what's up ....?
R :after you will know what is the problem....
C :is start angry keep asking A what is that....? fast saying...
C :50% is know what happen  A ...but still give chance R explain
R :still don't wonted to say....
C :give chance R still don't wanted say...fine angry till close R phone....
C :actually know the things already...just don't confirm is that i feeling that's things....?true anot ....
C :sms R ~ask R let C know did with join the trip... because a lot of people din't go C need go air-asia            separate booking do no show...
R :reply C cannot go already ~ you all luggage haven buy leh...how...? ...
C :final know the answer ignore R din't reply massage ....
C :before 2 weeks already know about R problem know R will wont goin...
R :say C can you don't help me decide ...
C : OK ..ASAP let me know did you will join us ...
R : give me 1 week to decide will let you know...
C: ok im wait your good news...
C: after one week has passed... try asking R did you will join us..?
R: join you guys going...
C: are you sure joining us ...ok im happy get R answer will join...

But now final let me know about R bad news ...
really really make me disappointed him...if not call R that's mean before depart just know about R din't join us ....????
haysss....
I CARE MY FRIENDS~
DID MY FRIENDS FEEL IT MY CARING....? DID IT WILL ....?????
my mood totally is be spoil ....
make me have a impulse cancel all whole trip..
tern back thinking did i do all arrangement is superfluous ....? why i will think that....
 because when i started organizes to all of my member  ...
.this trip total got 10 person goin
march or apirl got 4 of member say cannot join got somethings problem to do ...& 
bla bla bla some saying got own problem....
well...leave than 6 person ...but now 5 person only 
hayss...booked hotel before already unhappy for them because msg them nobody response me...
after im settle the hotel ...told them is book which hotel ....
ask them give some response ..
.they got give just ohh...
nobody caring the trip ...im angry them ...
if im also same with them not caring depart of  there just arrange ...
im feel is waste the time~ ever mind than im go find all the information for phuket which area is famous people going & where got delicious foods to having...
im do all the sightseeing placed n location to them ...
im very happy to do all the arrangement for my vacation trip...
yesterday i msg to them have a look my propose for our trip arrangement...
highlight them must reply me...im still not receive they reply...
Unfortunately im receive the bad news for R... 
seriously im think all of my arrange also rubbish....

TOTALLY SPOIL IT  SPOIL SPOIL SPOIL  !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

my heart totaly is giving them spoil it ...no next time to arrange for them n vacation to them....
What should i do ....? im thinking did i still goin with leave it 4 person...

My Day Nine 0905

真的让我很悲哀

真的很气 ！！！！

气到一刹那的冲动很不想去普吉岛了，

不懂要如何说好，

朋友是要如何的对待呢。。。。？

对朋友的好关心，

他们会在乎嘛。。。？

会上心你说的话嘛。。。？

我真的很气 ，很气！！！！

对朋友好，他们却不理会我为他们安排的东西，

真的很难受，

讨厌去安排。。。

很讨厌一个有事情要说的时候，却不要说

一直问他却不说，又要给暗示这样。。。

说到时就会懂，

到底想怎样。。。。？？？？？

真的很讨厌很讨厌一些这样的朋友，

人的容忍真的有限度。。。

My Day Eight 0305

Today at office quite busy ...

          busy for what ...?

1st is customer booking after finish hold on all the booking,

         because already finish do it urgent booking...heheh

   2nd is arrange mine phuket trip ....

im and my colleague will go on this month,but she will gion on next week ,
im will after she coming back that weekend going .

We both of us keep find information which more best price for tour snorkelling , delicious foods ,massage & shopping place....all of the trip is me advise ....my friends no do anything's notice....hayssss

chinese calling what " 临时抱佛脚“ 

 Keep looking at cari forum find people recommend advise....at cari forum can find more information for  people been before recommend suggest....make us more interesting to know it all for phuket which battle go....

so fast time already 5.30 pm finish work....tomorrow to be continue find more information ....aza aza fighting !!!!! hehe

finish work with colleague having dinner sushi zanmai ...yeahhhh....long time dint eat already...miss so muchhhh....yum yum 

after finish eating walk awhile at sungai wang for find swim clothes for mine phuket trip..very trouble need prepare to thinking wear what swim to snorkelling !!!!! wear pikini ....hahaha sure will let friends laugh die...or wear cut in clothes n short pants beachwear or beachwear skirt haysss....any idea for me....???

At 6th floor bought it one cutie iphone4 case....Got spongebob ,doraemon , rilakkuma , paul frank , chicky & ribbon .....ahahha cute nehhhh

Hehehe ~ did this case cute....
hahahhahha

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My Day Seven 0205

Happy Happy Happy !!!!!!!!!!!

Im make again the name necklace , holidays back to work receive my order stuff ...hehe
Ding Ding !!!!
first is receive mine necklace ...

This Time order is Gold Plated + Express delivery

This time order more nice than before order...love so much ....but this time worn will keep touch my neck did still be there....scare will season 2 again....hehe...


second is mine waterproof camera bought it my deal ....hehehe
Ding Ding

pinky pinky (^_-)

this waterproof camera actually not too expensive ,some of people thought will very expensive ....
dear friends just RM 29.90 only ...why will bought is for my phuket trip bring to snorkelling take picture...heheh

My Day Six

27 Apr - 01 May

好久都没有更新写我的BLOG噜~
今天来写写先，连续四天的假期工作三天又在两天的假期真爽啊。。。。
吖哈哈哈哈。。。
四天的假期都在hometown里休息,
为仕么会有四天假期呢，星期六因为bersih都会世界大乱的，
烂臭公司就要我们所有人 compusealry 拿 leave,
就将就没有一天的annual leave 了，<死人他啊>
星期一因为侄儿生日开生日会，就去看医生拿病假休息埋先，
星期二五月一号劳动节。。。
<说是陪妈妈>但都是在家做废人,
睡到十二一点起来,摸下摸下就两点多 ~
醒来吃,躺着看戏追on call 36 小时，
只有我最慢还看着这套戏。。。
失败失败。。。
时间就到旁一天过一天了
唉 ~ 真无聊哦。。。。
扮美美去侄儿生日会。。。
嘻嘻

简单的我~嘻嘻

我的侄女~可爱到。。。哈哈哈

寿星的跑车蛋糕~大姐订做的。。。
好美咯~

大家都在忙着唱生日歌拍照的，但没和寿星侄儿个人拍到照。。。

只有这和家人一起拍 ><

古灵精怪的侄女

侄儿，侄女，表弟，表妹

我家的小孩多到~我二姐好像幼儿园老师这样哦！！！哈哈哈

所有都是我侄儿侄女和我二姐

自拍下

好累哦 ！！！！将又过一天的~


无聊星期二的我又在自拍了。。。嘻嘻 

哈哈哈~超无聊的我。。。