I hate this feeling ....
always let me feel & thinking a lot bad things ..
heart be uncomfortable
a lot of things make me so difficult ...~
feel be complicated ~
because of someone , make me got this feel to think this bad things....
let me got this feel has to give up he...
im don't know why have this feel
why will thinking that...
im love he ~
since we now is long distance cannot meet everyday....just can via FB massage
he is working at korea is a band
before with he we everyday will massage talking...feel very happy...
sometime will argue with he ....sometime we fanny talk...
after he told me will start busy practice ,cannot talk everyday....
but he promise me when have a time will 1st massage talk to me...
yay...he got do what he promise me...
after he start less talk to me...
im get angry he...after he told me wont happen again...
but problem be same happen again...will after two days just looking me...
always argue with he also same the problem...
sometime will let me feel dont wanted believe what he say to me ...
when miss he wanted talk to he,he are very very busy...
im will think really very busy over there....?take a time to rest massage me also cannot ...?
always angry he & argue with he cannot accompany talking ...
after im feel habit he be that...because even im always angry he also cannot change ..
this is he job....
before that i will very mind why he not looking me ,no massage talking with me...
i will very mind...
but this time my feel has to change...
before he told me after april finish busy ,may have time can same like before we talking...after will vacation with friends...
on may im angry he again, because my feel has start dont wanted talk to he ...when he looking msg me asking what im doin here ...i dint reply he ...he has gone away ....he know i dint reply he because im angry he ...he keep msg ask me talk to he ...after one week im just talk to he...he msg me again ...after we be a normal talk ...
after 3 days ..he dint msg me again ...after 4 days more msg me told me has start vacation with friends...
when he looking me i will late reply he ,sometime will feel dont wanted talk to he again ...but i dint do dont talk to he lahhh...just will late reply talk to he...
before me will fast reply he...but this time has change ...
wont asking why now just massage me ya..
this time is no ...really no mind ,sometime will ask what you doing there only....time will leave it after he saying ...
im feel really not get angry ...
feel let me know i n he has be change,
really not same with before ,we sweet talking....
i dont know is it both of us change or just im change....??
this pass days keep have this feel let me very toilful...!!!!
i have to try dont wanted to think this ....keep give my self chance
im scare im regret let he know i wanted give up he ...
im dont know how he will think...if let he know i has change want give up he....? how he will things...????
im love he ,but my feel keep think that let me uncomfortable...
im think did i told he is true or fault ... im scare after he im regret ...?
can let me stop feeling that...i dont want this bad feeling....
im hope after mine vacation dint has this feel again...hope can with he continue before with talking...